My number one dream as a child was to be a wife and mother. I don't know when exactly I started thinking and dreaming about it. Probably around the time I started wishing I was a Disney princess or Blossom from the Disney channel?!? Either way, I really cannot remember a time when I didn't desire those two rolls. Now, that I am a wife and mother I realize that they are two of the hardest rolls in a woman's life. It can be so easy to go throughout a day, and not even once think about God's hand on my life, or his desire for me that day. I mindlessly go through the tasks of the day, waiting for a second to sit down, read a book, check my FB, make a phone call, or write a grocery list. I am waiting for that snippet of down time or a clam moment to collect my thoughts. In reality my life is not all that busy, and I could easily remove much of the "noise". Although, I feel I may have come to depend on that "noise". I can use it a diversion to quieting my thoughts and heart before the Lord.
My husband, Kirk and I were talking the other day about hearing God's voice. We both were sharing times where we felt we so clearly heard God's voice it felt almost audible. It made me reflect on the last time I had come before the Lord, and instead of throwing at him my list of wants, desires, and favors, I sat quietly before Him, pouring myself out, to be filled with Him. In having this conversation with my husband I believe I heard God's voice, calling me back to quiet moments with Him. Stop trying to be a Martha, and to sit before Him as a Mary. I so often feel I need to be the most awesome mother around, to take my children to every educational experience, or activity to make sure they have all the opportunities in life. I think instead I can be a much better mother if I sit before the Lord, and allow Him to transform me. To allow him to show me the areas in my life where I need brokenness. I think the rolls God has given me, are more to change my into his image than to make me happy or to give me my best life now. So my prayer this day for each lady is that we would quiet our hearts before the Lord, and seek to be changed by Him.
“I will greatly rejoice in the Lord; my soul shall be joyful in my God; for he has clothed me with the garment of salvation, he has covered me with the robe of righteousness, as a bridegroom decks himself with ornaments, and as a bride adorns herself with her jewels.
Isaiah 61:10 NKJV
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